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Okay so if you enjoy reading what I have here, then check out my other blog at www.justkeepswimmingforward.wordpress.com.. I have moved there and am enjoying writing posts on there. Feel free to check in there and follow that one, as this blog is not being added to, just left for those that want to check into my history! Thanks, Jamster

Cuddle buddies

Seriously? You haven't heard the term "cuddle buddies"? Oh you poor people.. I don't mean it like it used to be meant, as a booty call or something like that, so all you dirty minded people need to get your minds out of the gutter now! I am talking about when you are watching movies with your friends and you just want the human contact from a friend. Everyone should get some sort of contact from others at least a couple of times a week. And this is coming from someone who growing up with the friends I had very seldom got hugs or just that kind of contact. I had a few friends that were happy to be close and comfortable with each other, but that was few and far between, as some would say.
I know now that some of my very good friends have the tendency to want to cuddle when watching a movie, and that makes me happy. I am always happy to just sit and cuddle up with a friend when watching a movie. It's cozy and shows that you are comfortable with each other.
Maybe it's just me, I have heard from lots of people that we need to keep our own space and not be so close at times, but that's their opinion not mine...

So if you find yourself a good friend that likes to watch movies and doesn't mind if you lean against them, cherish that.. there are so few that will really let you lean on them these days!

Feeling and Reaching

Last night as I was laying in bed trying to sleep, I kept seeing things in my mind. It was as if I was being told something. I had the feeling that I was reaching out (not sure what I was reaching out for) and that I was only feeling air.. In my mind it was like I was trying to reach for a connection, though not to God because I still felt that in my soul. It was more that I was reaching for that personal friend connection and something was either getting in the way or dropped. It was like I was just reaching for something that wasn't really there, does that make sense? I don't really know where that was coming from, and I don't remember ever feeling something so hard before. This was a weird sensation, like a longing that was not really getting filled.
I kind of have an inkling of what it was about, but again I really don't know how things can be done on my end of things. I can only open up and put myself out there and I kind of know that when you do that, this feeling seems to come and go all the time and you just kind of live with it.
At least that is what my experience shows for now, at least!

Floating

Do you ever feel like you are just "floating" through, not really sure where you are headed or what goals you should be pursuing? I have been in that kind of, let's call it a valley, now for a few weeks, maybe months. I really don't know at this point where God is directing me. I stopped by the chapel at my church while I was there for the dance group I host, and had a talk with him. I felt better getting things off my chest and putting them out there for God to deal with, I just wonder now where I will be lead next..

Time to Hang out!

I tend to think about all the times that I have asked others to hang out, and I am starting to realize that I seem to be what I like to call the "constant asker". Just as the phrase inplies, I feel lile I am always the one asking to hang out with the other person. I begin to wonder if that means that I am the one in the friendship that is really trying to make time. I don't like constantly asking, because in the back of my mind I am wondering if the other friend wants to even hang out with me, or if they are just being polite because you really don't want to tell someone, "No, I really don't want to hang out with you."
I am pretty sure that is not the case with my friends, but I guess I just let my mind think that since I get the (at least to me) normal answer of "Sure let's hang out sometime." That's a great answer when it is followed up. If there is no follow up later and I have to ask about hanging out again, I kind of feel that I am pushing to hang out more than the other person and I feel that I look kind of desperate for friends.
Sometimes I feel that way, desperate for time with friends, but I don't want to look that way... I want to look like I have it together and am busy, not that I am waiting for my friends to make time for little old me..
I should be able to think of myself in a better light than that, waiting for someone to hang out and give me some attention.. Not by myself widdling away the hours until a friend has time to throw a few hours my way...
Okay that's all I have to say..
I feel like this post has become a bit of a pity party on me and it shouldnt be...

SORRY!