Where I stand...

Well,
kind of a different sort of topic to feel like writing but what can I say? I wanted to tell where I am right now in different instances, you with me?
Okay with my younger brother and sister-in-law, I am not exactly sure where we are at this time. I mean sure we chat and invite each other to go do stuff or whatever, but it seems at times that they think that I am up to no good and just want to harrass them or something... I mean I am sorry, but I am so not about to prank someone with a drunk dial, or if I do I will admit it. I think I would be letting you know it was me to begin with though, since I am like so truthful and whatnot when I have a few drinks...
where I stand with friends... who knows on this stand point too? I mean, I know that I am a good friend and try to be there when I am needed but where do I stand with them? am I still thought of in thier minds as a good friend, or do they see me as a little too me?? You know? I guess on that front I feel that I can just be there when they need me and hope that they would do the same for me, and not worry that I am just friends with them in my own mind, you hear what I am saying... Don't worry about this being about you if you are reading this, this is just about me writing about where my mind is right now and that is all....
where i stand with family... gramma and grampa are not thrilled that I have not been to church in a really long time. No I am not a heathen. Yes I love Jesus with all my heart and soul. I just am trying to figure some stuff out right now and even though I am not in church ccertainly doesn't mean that I am not talking with God. I don't have to go to church to be a Christian. I believe that God is wherever you are and he will meet you where you choose to be with him. my parents would like to see me succeed and frankly, so would I. I have my own secrets about what I am working on and where I would like to see myself ending up and all that, but right now I am just doing my best with what I got. Let's just hope that some stuff happens so that things can get a little easier for me. That's all I am saying on that front...
I think that is all I am going to ramble about for the night. I am trying to keep this up and now is my chance to work harder on it. so for now, thats all folks!