Dance, dance, dance

So tonight we had dance group. It was fun, though I am sadly by the sidelines with my injuries. It is fun to watch everyone enjoying the music and swing-dancing. I have been thinking about an offer that I have received about maybe holding a square dance night instead of swing just to learn that style. I was given the name of a caller, though I haven't ran it by him to see if he would be available, but he is from my church family so its a possibility that he could be interested in coming to do it. I should probably wait though until I am able to join in. I feel bad that I haven't been able to because I seem to be accident prone since June. I wish that I could join in on more of the learning and dancing but it is hard. There has to be some way to do more, I just wish I could figure out at this point what I can do... For now though I just have to grin and bear it. Things have got to turn around soon though, I mean the whole year can't be this way, right?

About my last post, and Cake Decorating

So I was thinking,
I should be able to use that support because isn't that why we have friends? To support each other and make it through life together? I am so thankful for the friends that God has placed my friends into my life. They are truly wonderful.

Okay so that is all I have to say about my last blog rambling.. Now on to what I want to say tonight:

I had my second cake decorating class this week and my cake turned out pretty good. I am slowly learning how to decorate cakes so that look more professional. I have also learned to make an icing that gets hard and can be decorated on. It can also sit out all day since there is no milk or butter in it. We made a cupcake cake in class. So delish, at least I think it is since we haven't really cut into the cake yet.. Tomorrow is the day when I am taking it to work.. Next week we are frosting cupcakes and learning to make the flowers that get placed on the top of them.. so let's hope that I can make flowers that are decent looking!

How should I title this one?

Okay so back in June I had my accident, I think I even have a post about it on here somewhere... Well, I am still dealing with it. It's okay, but aggravating! Having to deal with it continues to bring flashbacks to the forefront of my mind, why can't it just be something I dealt with and be done? It won't be that way, I get that! The images don't really ever leave, they seem to come up when I don't want them to.. like today talking about the liability part of the claim. I can't understand the money part of these processes, just thankful that there is help through all this..

I tend to question though, I have a wonderful absolutely sweet friend that i had come to my rescue right after the accident, staying with me two days until I finally started to get a handle on things, but I ramble... so back to the question.. how much longer can I lean? I mean, I really feel that I need support again with having to go back to the accident stuff, but shouldn't I be able to handle this stuff on my own? I know that I have to, but I just feel like I need that support for just a little longer.. is that a bad thing?

I lean on God, so anyone thinking that is the answer should stop now. I am a Christ-follower and I believe that he is with me through all of this, I truly do.. But I also need to feel the support, like person to person, and that is something that has to come through a friend as they are led by God to send their support my way.

I hope this makes sense, as I am typing as I am thinking and sometimes what I am thinking and then what I type seem to get muddled and just thrown out of whack..

Okay that's all!

adventures and Thanksgiving

As I am adventuring through this life, I am still learning so much that I haven't known. I am finding that things said could be looked at in various ways, good, bad, eh, and do I care... The way that you observe your holidays can change depending upon things also. Thanksgiving this year is going to be eating out in the company of my grandparents. It's a wonderful thing to spend time with my grandparents, though I do feel a little bad to be eating out at a restaurant since we are the reason that the restaurant won't be closed for Thanksgiving. (I do understand that there are other circumstances why restaurants are open, but I see it as we are contributing to the reason) It is a better plan though than my grandparents coming to my house and gramma being stuffed up with the scents that fill my home. She is allergic to scents and therefore, candles and pets (both are abundant in my home) cause her nose to fill and sneezing to ensue. Thanksgiving Dinner with most of my family will actually happen on Friday when we congregate at my grandparents house for the family get-together. It will be a good time had by all, but that is also why me going to their house wouldn't be in great taste either, since they are cooking for Friday... and I really don't want to make the meal and then have to pack it all up... So eating out it is.. just wonder which restaurant we will eat at?!

My past and present.. who knows the future..

SO my past is kind of harsh and I really don't know why I want to fill you in on this stuff except that I feel that if you want to get to know someone then this is the way you do it. I was the girl in the middle of boys (two brothers) and that alone was a little hard to deal with. My older brother really didn't want anything to do with the little sister that thought the world of him. He would leave me when I would try to follow him and it didn't matter where. We lived in a wooded area and I remember being left in those woods and not getting lost because he weaved and zigzagged and my little legs couldn't keep up. I heard that mom yelled at him and made him come back and get me, but I was still left.. It explains why I am not very good at being alone.
My younger brother was different though. He wanted to follow both of us and since my older brother treated me like I didn't exist, I cherished the attention that my younger brother would give me. We would play games for hours. My life was made better by my younger brother, though I really don't know if he realizes that...
The present day is really different then when we were younger. I realize we grew up and so we are in different points of our lives, but sometimes I wish that I could go back to the younger days when we were still close (at least me and my younger brother). One thing that I am grateful for though is the fact that my older brother went in to the Army and came out better than he was.
My older brother apologized for the way he treated me and my younger brother and that makes life better.
Now I don't really know where the future is headed, I just hope that things continue to get better and that maybe the issues will fade away with my family. Cuz right now, I really don't have the wonderful relationship that I had with my younger brother, and when I mention it, I get the answer of "we are growing up and therefore things are changing". It's a sad thing when change means that you lose those relationships that you came to cherish!